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Goodbye My Love 30 July 2010 Friday.

I'm not my usual self today...

The usual cheerful, talkative and playful me is not visible at all today...

My heart, my thoughts still linger around for you - my beloved dearest doggie. I still couldn't bring myself forward to accept the fact that you have left us for good. You left us on Friday 30 July 2010. I believe you are in good hands now. The blessing you have now, couldn't be compared to how much we can give you.

I Love You Always.

30 July 2010 - Friday

I am working as usual, waiting for the usual time to knock off to meet my friends for a drink. Everything was fine as planned...  We are drinking in a pub at Tanjong Pagar and we was chit chatting happily, nothing seemed wrong. Just a moment later, I heard this song playing on the screen.. it was 周杰伦-说了再见. I had never pay attention to any of Jay's song but this song left a deep thought inside me. This song was soon over, I'm sipping away with my beer and just a moment later, this song 周杰伦-说了再见 replay again in the big projector screen infront of me.. the feeling was unspeakable, no words can descibe how I felt at that time. Just then my mother called....

I didn't pick up her call, just let it ring nonchalantly.. minutes later I received a text message from my brother.. it stated "Ah boy passed away". I'm puzzled with a total lost of words, I return a text to him, "What??? You don't bluff me". This time the feeling was so strong and I know that wasn't a joke and immediately I give a call to my mum she asked me to get home now and settled my dog body. I went in told my friends that I gotta go, bid them goodbye and rushed out to flag a taxi. Damned, I got no cash I can only paid by nets can only take comfort or city cab.. no ATM nearby.. nothing..am so lost alone. Texted my boyfriend to tell him my dog is dead, I'm going back now and he too, going to my house to meet me.

20mins later still no sight of the cab, finally saw one I opened the door and I asked "Uncle, do you accept nets", he raised his voice at me and said "NO,NO!" when I can see that his nets machine is working well. I banged his door hard and cursed at him. I couldn't hold my bladder and went ahead to the nearest washroom. I cried so hard in the washroom, went out and continue looking for a cab, saw one willing to take me with NETS machine, am grateful and cried my heart out in the cab.

Reach home about 30mins later.. the journey in the cab seem so long.. I couldn't wait to get home immediately. My heart was pounding so hard while walking towards my door. Saw my mum sitting on the sofa, I went in the gate, throw my bag on the sofa and to see my beloved dog.. lying there motionlessly with white bubbles on his nose and mouth.. his tongue hanging out wih a little blood there... I'm crying so helplessly.. pulling his clothes yelling his name so loud hoping to resuscitate him. I'm kneeling down there for the next 30mins or so.. keep yelling his name, tears flowing down my cheeck uncontrollably. Ring my brother up and ask him to get home immediately to deal with his body. After so long, my brother finally appeared. Damn him.. I'm still profusely but somewhat cool off. We still thinking on how are we gonna to settle him. Tried searching for cremation services but...

My brother carried my dog up and laid him on a long towel, we wrap him up and bring him somewhere... only few of us know where he will forever be. kept at.............................

We anticipate that he will passed on sooner or later as he's behaving so indifferent from his usual self... All this happened too abruptly, we have not prepare for the worse. I've make a appointment with the vet on the next following day, he just couldn't wait. His death left many of us heartbroken. While writing this down.. I'm preparing to forget about his death and to move forward. He will still forever be in my mind.. he will still linger in my heart for as long as I live..

You are in good hands now, albeit the departure of you from us, we will give you our blessing. You are a lovely pet, always sitting beside me, licking me and jumping up on me stepping my tummy. I love you very much still, the love for you is even greater than what you have thought of, a thousand apologies that I've been neglecting you. Although it's too late to say all this.. You are dead now because you had pay off all your debts, you gonna return to the heaven to enjoy and to blessed us.

I will do up a album speacially for you. Goodbye my love.

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Back for updates.... :)

I've dumped this little space of mine for too long.......... finally I'm back with updates. I shall keep it short and simple as I'm really tired since the day I started my new job. I've been working like a mad women recently... working from 9am till 7/8/9/10/11 pm daily!

Finally I own this domain, www.ellis-lim.com , however I can only use the "url forwarding" add on to function it, because xanga require users to pay for using their own personal url, .......alright fine then. Not going to pay at this moment, I might switch to blogger instead.

I'm taking my career to a new heights after my 21st birthday (which falls on oct, still long haaa)! I'm going to step out of this cruel society, nonsense job environment and  nasty bosses.. to become a property agent myself. This might sounds awful, but I guess I've somehow make up my mind and to acheive what I've planned.

I gonna make money and own a property myself, perhaps my own businesses in the near future. Live life to the fullest. Yea.. it's getting pretty exciting.

I was browsing through FP's forum and I came across this topic "Recommendation cakes for 21st Birthday", hmm.. sounds good and I took a look at it... it's really pretty. Pretty and cute kinds of cakes, let me share some pretty stuffs here..

The pictures above are From: http://pinkgingerbynee.blogspot.com

& this pictures above are From: http://www.cakekingdom.com/

They make really pretty cakes, I bet I will be ordering my 21st Birthday Cakes & cup cakes from them.. and I'm still planning how should I celebrate my birthday, TeeHee. I might be travelling somewhere else for my birthday, might be celebrating just with my own family members and might even book a hotel to have some small celebration.. well, still planning..bye~

Goodnight!!

Gonna leave this little space of mine for a period. Shifting to another site, find me if you can..

Boring boring Sunday that makes me decided to blog. >.<"

A new year, a new start of 2010. Hmm.. 2 years more, end of the world? Hahahaha... I guess not.

My new year resolution:

Strike lottery, 1st prize consecutively for a period of a month.

Fine. Let's talk about reality!

1) Save $$$$$! I have not been saving any throughout my 20 years of living. (I only save when I wish to get my things badly!)

2) Get a stable job, with a stable income and be given transport allowance enough for me to own a car! With good prospect.

3) Own a toyota celica at least! (If only I can't get my BMW z4!)

4) Give my mum money to spent! (I give only a little, not enough for her to spent, haha.)

5) Cut down on my damn fats and slim down to 45kg! (a bit difficult!)

6) Have discipline to jog twice a week. (Came home so late always, how to jog.)

7) Get my dog to mate with a female doggie, and have cute puppies....

8) Further my studies. (So far, no idea what course to take, perhaps pyhscology)

9) Stop looking and buying on branded goods.. (-__________-")

I guess this will be all, till date. Haha... on a happier note....

I got my gucci sneaker at last!! Whahahahahaha, but I'm still sad, because I could not get that tag heuer limited edition watch in pink, super nice... but gone case.. urgg.... and I got a gucci sling bag from UK too.

But I'm selling away my gucci wallet....  http://sg.88db.com/Fashion/Accessories/ad-1230321/  take a look.

Please let me know if you are interested...

Best thing that happened this year so far... my bf FINALLY decides to go BKK with me for a short holiday. I am so please, because he never like to travel oversea... MUAHAHAHA. The flight tickets had already purchase. Hehe, he couldn't back off!! *giggles*

Back to my boring Sunday..... continue to rot....

Ciaoz...